36 weeks. The first week of the last month of pregnancy. In reality, Kylar will be here in 23 days, so I have less than a month left, but that's not the norm. This morning I woke up to at least half a dozen emails telling what all I "need" to bring with me to the hospital and what all I should pack right now in the event that I go into labor early.
1. Packing right now isn't a bad idea, and I will get on that as soon as I'm done with y'all.
2. Their list is ridiculous.
Let me clarify: It's ridiculous for me, a scheduled c-section where I know what to expect, there won't be any of this "moving to different rooms" nonsense, no laboring and walking around in an attempt to ease contractions, no concerns for modesty (let's face it, after 3 doctors and 6+ nurses come in and "check your progress" once, you tend not to worry about who's seeing what at a hospital).
My hospital list looks a lot like my packing list for a short trip out of town, with a few newborn-specific items thrown in.
I don't feel the need to bring the diaper bag, because the hospital supplies diapers, wipes, pacifiers, and diaper cream as needed and it's one less thing we will need to carry home with us. Plus, I'm paying a ridiculous amount of money have my baby there; I'm using their stuff.
The more I think about how much time I have left, the more relaxed I feel about the whole thing. It sounds crazy, but I'm remembering more vividly the days we spent in the hospital before and how that recovery went and I'm not so worried. Yeah, it sucked getting in and out of the bed, laughing, sneezing, or really doing anything that needed my abs, but I did it. Hell, the second night in the hospital, Connor screamed and cried inconsolably for what felt like hours. I remember being up, holding him, and pacing around the room bouncing him. If I could do that less than 36 hours later, why am I freaking out now about what it will be like a week or 2 after birth? I'll be fine. I've had a newborn during a c-section recovery before and everything turned out great! This time, I'll have a little helper too. As long as said helper doesn't want to climb into my lap for a few days (maybe a week), everything will be peachy.
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